Episode 243

Fred's Journey to Christ: From Brokenness to Beloved

June 22nd, 2026

1 hr 5 mins 11 secs

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About this Episode

TRIGGER WARNING! Many people have asked to hear more of Fred's story. In this episode, he opens up about parts of his life he doesn't often share publicly.
This episode of Draw Near contains adult themes; we do not recommend listening in the presence of children.

Through an honest conversation with Kara, Fred reflects on his childhood, the hardships he experienced, and the wounds throughout his early life. He shares why he often says, "I shouldn't be alive," and how there were moments when his future seemed uncertain.

Yet this episode is about far more than suffering or past wounds. Looking back, Fred can now see how Christ was present even in the darkest seasons: through unexpected people, quiet moments of grace, and circumstances that helped lead him toward healing and faith. What once seemed like random events now reveal a story of God's providence and relentless pursuit.

In this episode, we discuss:

  • Fred's childhood and family experiences
  • The challenges and wounds that marked his early years
  • Why he says he "shouldn't be alive"
  • The lasting impact of suffering and brokenness
  • Where Christ was present throughout the journey
  • How God works even when we cannot see Him
  • The path that eventually led Fred to deeper faith and conversion
  • Hope for anyone who feels trapped by their past

Whether your story is marked by loss, pain, disappointment, or unanswered questions, this conversation is a reminder that God is never absent. He is often working in ways we cannot yet understand.

As Jesus says in the Parable of the Prodigal Son (and Kara referenced in the episode):
"For this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found." (Luke 15:24)

No wound is beyond Christ's reach. No story is beyond redemption.

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If this episode resonates with you, consider listening to Fred's other testimony episodes, where he shares more about his conversion, his Catholic faith, and the ways God continues to work in his life today.

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